You know it's amazing how things seem to happen.  

A year ago, I never would've cared about anything, I never would've thought twice about someone else's feelings.   But then things change, people change, and people are taken from you just as quickly as they were given to you.

When my bestfriend left and moved to another state, I don't think I really was fully aware that he was gone and he wasn't coming back.   I don't think I prepared myself mentally for the inevitable breakdown to come.   When it finally came, it hit like a ton of bricks and I will never forget that feeling.  But then on the other hand, I will never forget the feeling of just chilling with him in his basement, learning how to play pool, watching ridiculous movies.  I will never forget saying the same thing at the same time, or knowing exactly what to say to him when he's upset.   Then when he left, I had to pick up and move on with my life as if nothing had happened, as if I hadn't just lost one of the best things to ever happen to me in my entire life.  

Then when Shane got in his fatal car accident, it was another blow to everything I knew.   It made me realise how short life really is, and how quickly the ones we love and care about can be taken from us.   It made me realise that the reasons why I didn't like someone, no longer seemed to matter.   There's no real reason to "hate" somebody, and there's no real reason not to have an amazing day everyday. 

Every single day that goes by I realise how lucky I am to be myself, and to have people who care about me.   Everyday I learn something about myself that I never knew, and I think that I'm taking some great steps into becoming who I want to be.

I will never be "that girl" again.  That girl who wanted to fit in more then anything, that girl who wanted everyone to love her, that girl who was totally arrogant, that girl who was a bitch.

I believe in peace, love, and everyyything else.
♥

I think I realised why I never write in this thing anymore....
I don't really have too much of anything to say?

I have been extremely busy lately, although right now I don't know what with.
Yesterday I went to the V-Unit farewell show, I had a good time mostly.

I went into the Color Wheel because Zach had some piercings to do.
While I waited this guy Jay & I talked about tattoos & he made a stencil for me.
He made it exactly how I want my next tattoo to look and he put it on my back.
Ahhh, I'm so excited now .

The rest of this week is probably going to be dedicated to my negro Jordan.
I miss him a lot so I'll be hanging out with him this week.

This weekend I'm HOPEFULLY going to see AIB at the Silo.
Gah, I tried to go to like 545653 of their shows & something always came up.
Riiiiiiidiculous.
Then Sunday I'm making time for Christoefur my love.

Anyway, if anyone wants to make plans, halla at me <3

(Psst; Homecoming is next week and I have a pretty sexy date, mwuahaha)

Hi, my name is Karen Jacobs.

Actually it's not, but Susan did call a lady named that.  And another guy named Rodger, and then two more named Charles, and of course Bob...can't forget Bob.  [bob had bitch tits]

Yea, Susan and I definately had one bonafide wonderful time this weekend.   I'll just give you a quick over view.   Ready?  GO! Friday Susan came over around 7:30, we found out we weren't going midnight bowling so we stayed home and talked about everything, and I mean everything.   We watched Rocky Horror (of course) and fell asleep to Fight Club.  Mmmhhhmmm.   Then Saturday we woke up around 10:30, took showers, got ready, ate pasta and spam and then went to the Silo.   There we met up with Tina, Jake, Dustin, and Kyle.   It was a lot of fun.   Then Susan left around 6 and I stayed at the Silo.

I stayed at the Silo with Tina, Jake, Nick, Dustin, and Kyle.   We saw a few people there like Steph my love, Shea, Garret, Nikki (who I haven't seen in forever), Erin, Stefi and I saw Ian as well.    We stayed to watch Valiant and that was it.  Then we left and went to Bill and Irene's and played some hardcore twister and then Jake's mom came around 12:30 and we all went home.  

All in all this weekend was pretty suh-weet.  

Finals are tomorrow, gah.   I don't want finals at all.   However, I do want the last day of school to come as soon as it possibly can. 

I hope you enjoyed. 

This is Karen Jacobs, signing off, goodnight. <3

I'm going to put pictures on here tomorrow.

Update 2 days in a row?  Are the planets in alignment?

I'm just bored.   I just finished cleaning my room&decorating it. Then I took a shower, finished some homework, and now I'm waiting for Susan to get online so I can make mucho plans with her, oh yea.

But in the meantime, I stumbled across this survey on Justin Allen (janitorsneedmore)Paul's Xanga, so fill it out fuckers...or else!

1. Name:
2. Age:
3. Height/Weight:
4. Fave Color:
5. Fave Movie:
6. Fave Song:
7. Fave Band:
8. Most Embarassing Moment:
9. Are you a virgin?
HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...
1. Are we friends?
2. Do you have a crush on me?
3. Would you kiss me?
4. ...with tongue?
5. Would you enjoy it?
6. Would you ever ask me out?
7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?
8.Phased out.
9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?
11. If I gave you my phone number, would you call me?
12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?
13. Do you talk shit about me?
14. Do you think I'm a good person?
15. Would you let me sleep with you?
16. Phased out.
17.Do you think I'm hot?
18. If you could change anything about me -would you?

I love you all.<333

New upserpic;;ohyea it's me&mybest..bejealous<3

Here are some old pictures I found that I thought I'd post, cuz I can.

^Proof that I once was cute.

^My almost 1year old tattoo, aww.

^Aw, how cute.

^teehee.?

^Not old, but I like it so bah.

^Wow, I have changed a lot.